You are going to be a boy!!!!

Dear Jr.,

Words can’t begin to express my excitement. We had our first ultrasound today! The doctor said your Mom was at 12 weeks. Whoa, whoa, whoa….12 weeks? We just found out 5 weeks ago! Could it be, that during Christmas, we conceived a little one? Do what? As a matter of fact, I think you might have been conceived during the week of Christmas, like really close to Christmas (but that’s enough info, you don’t want to peek that closely).

Sweet. A Christmas baby….what a gift.

As they were doing your ultrasound….what did we see? Here goes the those few great moments…..

Your Dad is sitting there taking video on his iphone, when he realizes that your Mom and I want some pictures, too. So I changed to camera mode. I took a couple of pictures and, as I looked at my iPhone, I spread my eyes real big and then I squinted. I had to make sure that I saw what I thought I saw! I realized there was a much larger screen to look at and I hear your Mom sob. The nurse goes “uh-oh.” With a voice raised high in pitch, I said, “Is that what I think it is? is that what I think it is?” Your Mom just kept going “oh no, oh no.”

You are going to be a boy.

But then the nurse chimed in and said that she couldn’t officially say that. All I could say to her was that I wanted to go buy a ball glove, please tell me I can! Give me a breadcrumb! All to no avail.

But I know what I saw, so does your Mom, and so does that nurse.

I just finished another milestone day in my life…

and I feel I don’t deserve to be so happy….to have all these blessings….

and as I look at these pictures here tonight….the video of you moving…hearing your heartbeat…I realize something…almost profound….

My heart will never be in my body again….my heart will always be you…

I love you today, tomorrow, and forever…

Dad