We are getting ready to enter our third week of the “new” normal. What does that look like? Well, you girls haven’t been to school since March 13th. Mom and I go to work and that is just about it. Once upon a time, our family trips were to the grocery store and Jonesboro to eat.
Not any more.
Now, one of us go to the store and come home. We wipe off our groceries, we constantly wipe our counters…we are doing everything we can do prevent catching this. I’m about to start working from home. Mom still has to go into her office to work.
Here is what I want for you to know. I worry about both of you. I worry that if you catch it, they are going to take you to a hospital and I won’t be able to be with you. They can’t let anyone else in the hospital. You, alone, for two weeks trying to get better. It scares me. I really feel like if you got it, you would eventually be ok. I think that is why I am so paranoid….not for me, but for you.
Ultimately, I know I’m going to be fine, either way. I might not get it. Things will be fine. I might get…and I don’t know how that will play out. There are a couple of different scenarios. First, I get it and I recover. Great. The other scenario…I get it and it doesn’t go good.
I want you to know that I am at peace. In this moment of great uncertainty in our world, I’m at peace. How can you be at peace when the world is going crazy around?
I have the peace of knowing that my Savior, even though the world is crazy, my Savior will not abandon me. Truly, I feel that God is trying to show up something.
He has taken every social event away from us, he was taken many jobs away from us, he has taken personal security away from us. You could say the same of health and well-being. Why? Why would a love God do that to us?
Social lives gone= Nothing to do.
Jobs gone= Nothing to do.
Personal security= We were relying on ourselves, not him.
In these moments, God is showing us that he is all there is, will be, and needs to be. In these moments, God is turning us back to him.
Tomorrow is Easter. For Christians, this is an important holiday…arguably the most important. This is the time when Christ was dead. Tomorrow (Easter), he comes back. Right now, our world has turned away from Christ. For us to have a tomorrow, we must turn back. The irony is here for all to see, but the world has been blind for so long….my hope is they will see it before it is too late.
One thing that God hasn’t taken away from us….family.
I have enjoyed spending so much time with you. I love you in ways that you won’t understand until you have children. I don’t know how this ends, but I know I’m glad you are on this journey with me. Being together (with you) has been the one thing that I feel has kept me sane during this time. I will be forever grateful for your happiness, your love, and your kindness during this time.
Dad of Girls 